Vice; the “Unitary Executive”

Today is the 1st day of the 7th week following my heart surgery Dec. 4.  I’m told that most likely the body healing is near accomplished, but don’t rush anything.  Today I began a program of Heart therapy which will go on for some weeks.  I’ve started to drive solo again!  Think of being 16 again!  But I’m on a short leash – short trips around town.  Generally, health things seem to be going well.

I’ve spent these six weeks as a patient – much as inpatient.  The ongoing story is here.

With a few exceptions, the ‘outside world’ has been fairly foreign to me.  I was in a Minneapolis hospital bed watching the President announcing his threatened government shutdown on Dec. 11 to Nancy Pelosi, Chuck Schumer and all of us.  He scares me, but does not impress.  He can do great damage.  Today was the 32nd day of that government shutdown, the longest in American history, with no end in sight.  There has been other ‘news’ of course.  Some scraps, from my point of view.

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We managed to take in three movies in the time since I’ve come home.

The most recent film I would highly recommend: Vice, about the years of then Vice-President Richard Cheney.  (Look up “Unitary Executive” as you prepare for the film.)

The film has distinctly mixed reviews (I’ve linked the Wikipedia compendium above).  Vice is billed as a “comedy”, though in my viewing, there is not much comedy about it, and its basic data is completely consistent with the reality of, particularly, 2001-2008..  I lived the Cheney years, and I know the history and the actors in it in personal tems.

My reason for urging folks to take the time to take in the film is that it gives an opportunity to reflect back to the past catastrophic (my opinion) post 9-11-01 United States, over which Vice-President Richard Cheney was dominant.   9-11-01 shook me into activism, and while I’m now 17 years older, and not into aggressive activism at this stage in my life, I still feel that 2001-2008 was an extraordinarily dangerous time for our democracy.  Watching the film I found myself often thinking about how good a model Cheney was for the current occupant of the White House…and how dangerous this model was and still is for our democracy.

I encourage you to see the film.

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A Word About Negotiations:  The painful chaos in the United States since Dec, 11 is never far from view, even if a person – like myself, currently – is (it appears) insulated from the consequences.  I don’t have to work without pay, yet.  It’s a benefit of being long retired in a society that years ago cared about working people like myself, through retirement programs, Medicare and the like.  It is hard to keep perspective, but every day the TV brings the message back, as it did while my residence was a hospital bed for 17 days in December, 2018.)   No one threatened me with being left out on the street, as has now happened with hundreds of thousands of federal workers.

Just Above Sunset summarized the reality of the U.S. very well this morning: Dealing in Pain.

I woke before seeing this commentary, and as I opened it I was thinking back to my own work days, specifically 1972, when I went from a classroom teacher, active in a teachers association, to teachers union executive director in the same school district, in a place which was just making the hard transition from ‘bring and beg’ ‘negotiations’, to a statutory right to collectively bargain contracts with exotic things like grievance procedures etc.

It was a hard transition for both sides.  Management was used to having all of the power; labor wasn’t accustomed to having any levers of power.  Abundant mistakes were make, but we all grew and adapted, and today, 47 years later, there is still collective bargaining in this state.  People work stuff out.  The last strike I recalls was in the early 1980s.  There were other threats, but people on both sides got the necessary deals done.  It is how problem solving works.

Not now, in Trumps idea of the U.S.  I saw all manner of negotiators and negotiating myself, for 27 years from 1972-2000.  I was one among many trying to o what I could to get something settled.  We were of all sorts.

I can think of no ‘negotiator’ more incompetent than Donald J. Trump.  He stands along, stuck in his own complete incompetence.

It should not have to be that way.

Trump is apparently incapable of realizing that the rules of engagement changed when he became President of the U.S. (and dictator to the entire world) now over two years ago.    Where he could rule by threats and edicts and rank dishonesty in his little New York City empire, he is now  trapped in a system existing for over 230 years, which encompasses far more than vanity towers including his name in large letters, and which has over its long history, in imperfect ways, adapted to a rule of law where everyone matters, at least a little.

We’ll never be perfect; but we’re far better than we could be.

How this will all play out remains to be seen.  At the moment, it doesn’t look promising.  All I know is that every single one of us has an important and active role to play in becoming part of the solution.  We have to actually do things beyond complaining, and our actions of necessity will have to be small and direct acts of down-home democracy.  There is an infinite list of possibilities.

Ultimately, I think – I hope – Trump will collapse in his own mountain of garbage.  Our country can do better than welcome a national bully who apparently cannot conceive of anything or anyone even somewhat equal to himself.  Let’s get to work.

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Post note: I have been less than attentive to my blog space.  Dec 4 I had major heart surgery; Dec. 21 I came home from the hospital.  I’ve been in recovery mode ever since.  At midnight Dec. 22, the U.S. Government shutdown began and as of today is completing its 32nd day, the longest shutdown in U.S. history.  The first shot about the pending shutdown came on national television on Dec 11, when President Trump said he was going to shut down the government if he didn’t get the requested 5.7 billion for his wall on the Mexican border.  He said clearly and publicly he would accept responsibility for the shutdown.  The rest is argument.

Here’s the wikipedia article on the issue.  (Wikipedia turned 18 a few days ago, and has become one of the credibility rock stars for on-line sources of public information.  It got a well deserved shout out in Sunday’s Washington Post opinion section.

The Wall

Last night I decided to watch, in total, the positioning of Donald Trump, and the responses from Rep. Nancy Pelosi and Sen. Chuck Schumer.  I did watch every minute of the presentations.

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A few hours later came Just Above Sunset, which summarizes points of view from the pundit class about pertinent issues of the previous day.  You can read the summary, about “The Wall”,  here.  The e-mail following ‘Sunset’ was the morning opinion section of the Washington Post which, this morning, included six commentaries about the previous evening, only one of which gave the advantage to Trump; another one which fact-checked his every assertion.  This President is incapable of telling the truth, or negotiating in good faith, but to his admirers, that doesn’t seem to matter.

Mid-morning we went to the local indoor walking track, as I work at re-conditioning after recent heart surgery.  We were finishing the first lap of the perimeter when a man passed us by, and in passing commented on Trumps wonderful speech a few hours earlier.  I disagreed; the man reemphasized his support for Trump, and distaste for Democrats, and life went on.  It was a “life is too short” moment.

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The incident got me to thinking of a similar encounter in late winter 2014.  I was in rural ND, and stopped by to see my Uncle’s tax man.  A forlorn looking man had just come out of the same office and apparently  had just received some bad news about his personal tax situation.   I had no idea who the guy was, and I suspect the same was true for him, about me.  Just two individuals whose paths had crossed on a wintry morning.

The guy did volunteer an opinion: that Hillary Clinton should be in jail, presumably for causing him tax problems.  He was very specific.  She was the named perpetrator.  I was a stranger on the scene.

I said nothing.  It did occur to me that at the time, Hillary Clinton, had no policy position relating to tax policy or enforcement.  She had been U.S. Senator from New York for eight years (2001-2009), and certainly could have voted on tax policy but that was about it.  She had been Secretary of State from 2009-2013 in the Obama administration, and by 2014 was certainly interested in running for the presidency.  But that was about it.

Somehow that guy had been convinced that Clinton was his sworn enemy – without evidence.

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Last night, apparenly,  Trump worked his dark magic once again with the rube who expressed his opinion to us at the sports center.

I heard every minute of Trumps declarations; I had read the fact check analysis of his assertions about The Wall and the desperate need for it.  As always with Donald Trump, “smoke and mirrors” prevailed.  Nonetheless, as is commonly noted, as many as 40 percent of Americans believe his claims – lambs to the slaughter.  “Facts” matter only to the extent that the assertions are believed.  Reasoned argument is a waste of time.

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About all I could do this morning at the indoor track was to do what I did – disagree with the assessment and wish the guy a good day.  About the best I could hope to accomplish was to at least cast a slight doubt in the guys mind; perhaps causing him to think a bit before he makes the same kind of assertion again to the next mark.  I won’t change him into a champion of critical analysis, but perhaps I can have a little impact, anyway.

UPDATE 6 a.m. Jan. 10:  Here’s the newest Just Above Sunset, “The Sheer Force of His Mighty Will” .  Today is the presumptive visit to “The Wall” by Trump; and absent some miraculous development, the first official day of no U.S. federal paycheck to hundreds of thousands of government employees is tomorrow.

This brings to mind, “The Emperor Has No Clothes”.  A bully who negotiates through the “strength” of a bully is a terrible, impotent and dangerous negotiator.  I hope the American people, who elected this person, remember this at every future election for every office, anywhere.  We get exactly what we ask for.

A Thought:  During my hospitalization my good friends, the Krisch’s, gave me a book “A Nation of Nations, A Great American Immigration Story” by Tom Gjelten.  I have not yet opened the cover, but certainly will as the book seems very interesting and pertinent.  Do check it out.

Nancy Pelosi

Yesterday I spent a bit more time than usual, watching the changing of the guard in the U.S. House of Representatives.  Yesterday was women’s day on capitol hill and, as House Speaker designate Nancy Pelosi noted, it will be during this Congress – the 116th – that the Centennial of Women’s Suffrage in the United States will be celebrated in 2020.

I happen to be partial towards Speaker Pelosi, as a leader and as a person.  Part of this might be that she’s about one month older than I.  The real reason is she has more than proven her mettle as a leader and as a negotiator over the years.  She will do very well as leader of the people’s house, the U.S. House of Representatives.

Of course, her very strengths are the reasons that she is scorned: an object of derision (which in her case is a mark of the respect she has earned over a long career).  She is a force to be reckoned with.

This day I have been thinking about other companion images related to our nations transition of power in this day of winner take all politics.

The best I could do was to remember the innocent days of “professional” wrestling, where horses of humanity like “Gorgeous George” and Hulk Hogan and their infinite variations assumed vicious and intimidating pre-match poses presumably to scare their opponent half to death before the first body slam of the day.  It was good theater, back in the day.  Heroes and villains.  Today it has been refined, but the old days had more authenticity, shall I say.

In today’s world, handlers of politicians and other set about the task of preening their anointed product or person, and destroying the opponent.  The process is almost surgically precise…and convincing.

And we judges of performance of our lawmakers choose the news media that in turn pick and choose the one or two minutes to define individuals or parties.  It takes no time whatever to notice selection bias at work.  It has happened already in the first 24 hours of the new Congress.

Caveat emptor.

It is a wonder that our system works at all.

Back in the day, Gorgeous George and Hulk Hogan and so many others stood nose to nose with their adversary in their most intimidating poses.  For we rubes, there was at least the theoretical possibility that one of the wrasslers might actually go after his adversary in person, mano a mano.

We could use more authenticity in todays politics.  I hope we see some of it in the coming months and years.

it’s long overdue.  You are a crucial part of the solution to a serious problem.

PS:  Some years ago I heard a most captivating talk by native American veteran Jim Northrup, whose service included boots on the ground service in the harshest days of Vietnam.

In his remarks, which you can view here if you wish (relevant video starts at about 12 minutes.) Northrup recalled the day that Hollywood tough guy John Wayne helicoptered into the field base at which he was stationed.  Of course, Wayne was a real Hollywood ‘star’, and the GIs were duly impressed.  Somebody suggested to Wayne that perhaps he might want to join a patrol as part of his visit.  Wayne quickly demurred, leaving the task. he said, to “the professionals”.  Wayne’s choice was very logical.  He had the luxury of making the choice.

PS II – A reader asks, “How are you?”

The surgery was a month ago, Dec. 4, thence 17 days in hospital – a long spell – since Dec. 21 at home.  I think I am doing reasonably well.  I walk under my own power, without walker, cane or other kind of assistance.  The longest distance thus far is about s city block.  The stroke, which was very much a concerning matter, seems to have had little residual effect, as assessed by occupational therapy earlier today.  Only in last few days have I really felt the appetite to do the kinds of things I used to like to do every day.  But I am now spending a couple of hours out each day.  I try to be realistic.  Things could be much worse.

COMMENT

from Fred: Re Nancy P: Your comments align well with my feelings about her. She got things done as Speaker when it came to passing difficult legislation. But Madam Speaker now faces a Trump rubber-stamp leading the senate, and loyal “Yes sirs!” from Trump Party followers. Sorry GOPers, it’s The Donald’s organization now, RIP Republican Party.

2019 – healing.

UPDATE April 4, 2019

Today is four months post-surgery.  Within the last few days, Mick Jagger announced he’d be having valve replacement as I had.  He thinks he’ll be hopping around by summer.  I wish him well.  It takes time.

Each day I feel more “normal” but there’s still much room for improvement.  The first day of Spring, March 21, I did my first full-length walk on the route I usually take in the winter.  I completed the route in a little longer than “normal” for me, and a little bit more tired.  But it worked.  I’ve done the route three times – it’s still a bit chilly – and all other days have been indoors at Lifetime Fitness, doing about 45 minutes total on the stationary bike and treadmill.

At Church last Sunday I was enlisted to help out with ushering, and it went well.

Not 100% , but not 50% either – somewhere in between.

March 19 the Minneapolis Star Tribune had an article about the TAVR heart valve which initially was the one I was to receive.  TAVR Strib Mar 2019001 The article speaks for itself.  In the end, it was determined to replace my valve with a portion of a bovine valve – a standard procedure.  Whatever the case, there is a new valve which apparently is functioning better than the previous.

Nothing is without risk.  As the article points out, things can happen, (as they can happen to anyone, any time).  But all goes pretty well, and I have no regrets.  Next report, Lord willing, will be in a month, on my 79th birthday.

 (earlier posts continued at March 12 at the conclusion of Jan. 1 post, below.) 

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The pillow, Fairview Southdale Edina MN week of Dec 4, 2018

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Jan. 1, 2019: Happy New Year!

This morning I filed a reply to a Facebook post about Grandson Bennie from Robin and David:  I am most grateful with Bennie’s visits at the time I was hospitalized and here at home in recovery. Thank you all so very much. 2018 had a long and uncertain ending; 2019 begins at least with promise. There is the famous song lyric of John Lennon “life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans” (Beautiful Boy). Apparently the specific quote traces back to Allen Saunders in a 1957 Readers Digest article. No difference, it is so right on. The three of you are models for me as 2019 begins. Let’s have a great year!”

Bennie’s accident and my heart diagnosis effectively happened on the exact same day, May 25, 2018, perhaps an hour apart.  For me, my primary physician noted something about my heart at my annual physical.  I have doctored at the same clinic since 1991, and I’m forever grateful to the annual physical which were, until this year, basically routine.

These days there are so many ways to communicate.  Cathy has done a great job with Caring Bridge (Bennie’s Caring Bridge is here). As the resident caregiver, Cathy is the one who makes sure I take the proper meds and she keeps the personal ship more or less on course.

I finally decided to use this blog as my personal platform, (most recent post Dec. 28.)  Facebook is another platform, which I infrequently use; good old-fashioned e-mail is one of my most common means of connecting person to person, dick_bernard@msn.com.  So it goes in these wired times.

Succinctly, I’m doing better.  As I commented to my sister, Sunday I successfully walked more than a city block each way to/from Church, the Basilica of St. Mary.  No walker, no cane, under my own power, no balance issues.  Of course this is no foot race.  On the other hand, my ticker worked just fine.  The small stroke seems hardly an impediment (though I still have to watch for typos ib tge [on the] keyboard.  (I’ve left two genuine typos for illustration.  It is vexing.)

Today we’ll go to a movie – Mary Queen of Scots.  It looks interesting.  At this New Years Day, 2019, normal seems to be slowly returning.

Yesterday was a visit to my primary care physician; a scheduled followup to the heart surgery.  Cathy came along – good to have other eyes and ears to deal with nuances of medications, some of which are new.  I was impressed with the thoroughness of the post op assessment.  You have to work to escape notice as the notes of each attending person at every level are on line and visible to the attending staff.  No ‘dog ate it” dodges!

Friday is the first appointment for the requisite therapies – PT and the like.  There is a cost to vacation.   This month seems to be a time of work; I’ll be somewhere in the near neighborhood, so no need for long drives.

More reporting as the month goes on.  I appreciate everyone, most especially Cathy for keeping me on track.

Happy New Year.

PS:  I have been irregular on blog posts, and, of course,  my personal circumstances have changed.  I do plan to continue publishing, and get back in to the regular routine.  Just check in once in awhile if you’re interested.  The calendar at right will reveal whether/which dates cover a published post.

March 12 and following, continued.

March 12, 2019: My post-operative appointment with the Cardiologist was yesterday.  She was the physician who started me on the march to surgery last October.  I admit to being nervous beforehand.  I didn’t know what would be said.  There had been echocardiogram, blood test and x-ray before the appointment. The report was very positive (I had to ask for a second opinion, and Cathy concurs – she was there).  Succinctly, the doctors Instructions:  “1.  No changes to medications..2.  No problem with traveling.  3.  I will plan on seeing you back in my office in six months.”  The surgeon who did the surgery on Dec. 4 stopped in unexpectedly.  No, not because I’m a prize-winning “specimen”; rather to take a look at a minor post-op issue.  The cardiologist said a reasonable expectation was to give the recovery process a year.  I’ve heard that from others who’ve “been there, done that”.  Now, basically, it’s up to me.  Mental and physical activity are encouraged.  I think I know what I need to do, and the coming spring (some day fairly soon, I hope, will get me outside again.)  Recovery is a team process.  I’ll try to do my part!

Thanks for reading.  Check in once a month or so.

March 4, 2019:  Three months ago today was the open heart surgery that still manages my life, and probably will continue to manage in the longer term.

Coincidentally, in today’s mail came two items laying out billings related to the surgery and after care.  Thank goodness for Medicare and Blue Cross/Blue Shield supplement that we are fortunate to have.  I haven’t tallied up the total at this point.  Most likely out of pocket will be minimal, particularly compared with the “retail” bill.

I last reported on Feb. 4, one month ago.  The recovery process continues.  A week or so ago I gave an informal assessment to a friend: I’m probably at about 50% pre-surgery now.  Actually, this is an it depends number.  Today I was at the gym, and for the last few times have essentially performed at pre-surgery levels on the tread mill.  But I know I’m not anywhere near 100% yet.  My norm used to be an hour a day walking outside.  With our record-setting winter, such has been impossible to even imagine.

Feb. 25 I had a couple of appointments at Fairview Southdale Hospital, and asked Cathy to show me the “the scene of the crime” – the ICU and Hospital Rooms where I had spent the first three or four days after surgery on third floor.  Just imagine a hospital room where your environment is a bed, and your horizon is mostly the ceiling and the wall in front of you, by yourself….  For a short time I had a roommate, but he was in about as bad shape as I.  I’m normally not much at casual talk, so being quiet was not unusual.  But it was good to at least see the places I resided.  I likely won’t forget the different world one lives in coming out of anesthesia.   Burned in my mind’s eye is the outside world which I saw once in awhile from the hospital bed.  It was nothing more than another part of the hospital building, maybe a couple hundred feet away, but it was the real world!

February was Cardiac Rehab month at Woodwinds Hospital, which is only about three miles from here.  There were 18 or so one-hour sessions, each supervised by a physical rehab therapist.  Maximum patients were five, each with one therapist.  The basic equipment was treadmill and other similar equipment, and weights.  The objectives seemed to be two: supervised activity so we got a notion of what we could do; medical management with heart and blood pressure, etc., monitoring to make sure the ticker was working.  I gave them highest compliments.  Before the therapy, I had no idea what it was about.  Now I do.  I recommended it to a friend this morning.

Before Woodwind Rehab was rehab in a satellite clinic building and, of course, the initial rehab at Fairview Acute Rehab center.  Each place was staffed by remarkable people, who deal with broken folks like myself – relearning, sometimes, the bare basics of living, starting over…..

I have been getting into more of a ‘normal’ routine.  Only recently have I started to re-claim my place at Caribou Coffee – a place I’ve been at almost every morning for near 19 years.  I was there this morning from about 6:30 – 8:30, which was my ‘standard’.  I am a creature of habit.  But I had almost never been back there till the last week or so.

As mentioned above, I’ll likely be at Lifetime Fitness, where we have a membership, but had seldom used for a long while – I liked to walk outside.  I will do the outdoors, but also indoors.  There is also an indoor walking opportunity a few miles away at the Bielenberg Sports Center – three soccer fields under one roof.

I’m not pretending all is taken care of.  Tomorrow morning is a sleep study consult.  I don’t think I’m a candidate for C-PAP, but I’ll wait for the consult (not a sleep study tomorrow, just a prescribed consult).  The Sleep Study Center is across the parking lot from the coffee shop, so close by.  Cathy will be along.

For a week, one to go, I’m wearing what’s called a Zio-Patch.  It records every heart beat.  It’s ZIO XT if you want to look it up.    I think they are mostly monitoring to make sure AFIB or the like is controlled.  (I’ve never had AFIB, but it was a post-operative complication for a short time.  I’ve observed nothing unusual.  It will be interesting to see what it shows.

I’m getting more into normal routine, though I think I’ll slowly become somewhat less engaged in my assorted passions, like Citizens for Global Solutions, French-American heritage and the like.  I’m closing in on 79, so if I have a few more years left, I want to do other kinds of things as well as the tried and true.  I know myself too well, however, to predict that I’ll be a couch potato.

One closing note, hopefully with a good outcome:  on February 4, the exact date I did the last update, our friend J. Drake Hamilton was discovered unconscious near her home in St. Paul.  She had slipped on ice, apparently, and had a very severe head injury.  As I write, she is slowing rejoining the world.  She’s a brilliant climate science person, and has been involved at highest levels, but to my knowledge, she has not yet said her first word since the accident.  Visit her Caring Bridge site at least once.  She is walking the same kind of walk Grandson Bennie took, and is still taking.  [PS, March 5: I just read Pat’s update on J, and it seems like yesterday was a remarkable day among every remarkable day in recovery.  Having experienced Physical and Occupational Therapists at several locations the last three months, I can say from experience, they  are absolutely remarkable people, doing their own kind of magic!]

Count your Blessings.  And thanks to everyone for your support and interest.

Consider donating to Caring Bridge.  It is a remarkable service.  I wasn’t much aware of it till Bennie’s injury became noteworthy.  His site remains on-line here.  The last update was Nov. 20.  I need to remind Robin and Dave to add to it.  Bennie’s is a continuing story.

Feb. 4, 2019 Yesterday (Sunday) I was at the Men’s Retreat I have attended the last four years.  It seemed a good time to do a “selfie” about the actual person a few weeks after heart surgery.  It took a few tries…here’s the one I decided to “launch”.

Dick Bernard, “selfie”, Prior Lake MN Feb 3, 2019

Right before going to the Retreat, I made a brief post on the occasion of the beginning of “Heart Month”.  If you wish, it is here.  The recovery process continues.

Jan. 29, 2019. Today begins the 9th week after the surgery.  Yesterday I was at Cardiac Rehab (part of the recovery program – there are five in my group, and we do an hour at 8 a.m. M-W-F) and the therapist was introducing me to weights.  She asked me to put my arms over my head.  I told her I’d been told not to do that.  Well, she said, you’re more than six weeks post-operative and it’s fine.  It was a good reminder, I’m sure not an unusual one to people in the same boat I’ve been: “you’re healing.  Time to try something new….”   Day by day, confidence returns, a little at a time.

I write in the first day of subzero – way below zero – weather in my area.  The norm for everyone here will be limitd mobility for three days or so; stay home if you don’t need to go out.  Cardiac Care is only two or three miles away; the walking place not much further.  We’ll see what the a.m. shows: the class is at 8 a.m.

I’m not feeling 100% yet, but really feeling pretty good.  There is really not much else to report.  Life is beginning to seem like it’s returning to normal.

Jan. 19, 2019.  I returned home from the Rehab Center on December 21, 2018.  It was great to be home.  Of course this was also in the midst of Christmas-New Years season.  This particular end of year was completely dominated by earlier events in December, and as most any family knows, there are visits, events, etc., which make up the family rituals called, usually, “Christmas”.  I deeply appreciated all of the visits, etc., but the healing process was really delayed until after Jan. 1.  “Christmas time” was more than a bit foggy.

Today, it is a month and a half since the surgery on Dec. 4 – it seems like yesterday…and like a year ago – odd how time is both compressed and extended in my minds eye.  The most recent medical appointment was yesterday.  I think that if you actually saw me these days I would look and act basically the same as before.  I hardly used things like the walker and a chair for the shower, and never used a cane.  I seem to have passed muster on the assorted sensory and cognitive tests.  I’ve already walked near a mile in one outing (which may have been a bit much, though I’m glad I did). Yesterday I took a brief solo drive in my car (with Dr. knowledge and permission).  I did just fine.  But extended forays are a ways in the future yet.  I’m not pretending that all is the same as it was Dec. 3, 2018….  Healing is a process.  One day at a time….

Yesterday was appointment with Neurologist at University of Minnesota Health..  His function was to assess my “cerebrovascular accident (CVA) due to bilateral embolism of middle cerebral arteries  and Gait disorder.”  Of course, I was “eye witness” to this small stroke not long after I began to come out of the fog of the surgery: I had no ability to use my left leg – it is an indelible memory.

There was an immediate brain scan, and yesterday we had a look at the results of that scan.  It is interesting to watch one’s brain on parade on the computer monitor, with little markers attached to show what had happened where at the time of the surgery.

Dr. took me through all of the usual tests yesterday – hand-eye; peripheral vision, reflex, walking and the like.  Best I know, I passed everything easily (always a point of nervousness as I age).  We talked a  bit about stuff – open heart surgery is not like a dentist appointment!  Next week is complete echocardiography (which is where this adventure began back in the summer of 2018), with Ziopatch monitor, probably to keep track of the early concern of AFIB (never before a problem for me).  They drew some blood for Methylmalonic Acid and vitamin B12 assessment (apparently no problems).

(I noted the clinic was about a block from where first wife Barbara died July 24, 1965 of Kidney Disease.  Back then it was the main University of Minnesota Hospital; the structure remains, of course, but has been extensively changed over the years.  It is still a teaching hospital, as it was then.)

And then back home.

I am thankful to be around at this stage in my life, and feeling better each day.  Enjoy and use well the time you have left.  We are all on the trip.

Here’s a good reminder: The Station001

Possibly down the road a piece, I’ll attempt to describe how life looked to me as a patient.  Possibly….

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Jan. 12, 2019:  Jan. 4 was the one month anniversary of heart surgery.  Jan. 12 seemed like far more than a month.  Looking at it reflectively I’m actually making progress.

Four mornings ago I walked a full quarter mile indoors at the local Bielenberg Sports Center, where the perimeter (the walking area) of the three indoor soccer fields is just under a quarter of a mile.  That is one-tenth of what I used to walk, (at a slower pace, so far); But I now have a goal, and for me announcing the goal is a good incentive.   The second day I walked two laps; yesterday, three.  Yesterday I took a break due to other appointments (four days next week I have one appointment or another); today I was back to the routine of slowly regaining strength and confidence and doing a 4-lap session….  I’m no hero at fitness, but as anyone knows, if you’re going to improve, there is a certain amount of “pain” involved.  On I go.

The last few days the occupational and physical therapy folks have checked me out.  Things like balance and the like seem in pretty decent shape; a little out of kilter in some instances due to the stroke.  Actually doing something (activity) will be the best remedy, it seems.

There is little else to be said, than to repeat the gratitude I have earlier expressed for the entire ‘system’ – family, friends, professionals, on and on.

I will continue to do updates from time to time, all at this page.  Check in once in awhile.  The first will be later today.

Let me leave it at that.

I’ll keep you apprised.

 

Infrastructure: Community

Previous related posts at Nov. 29 and Dec. 22.  Also note Caring Bridge.

Today is daughter Lauri’s birthday (lower right in photo).  She says today is the 23rd anniversary of her 23rd birthday.  We all have our strategies….  I suppose there are better birthdates to have than Dec 28…if your interest is presents.  Christmas is too much competition.  Even as a parent, I tend to remember her birthday a bit late.  Happy birthday, Lauri.  “Back in the day” I called her “Miss Minnie”.  Why? I have no idea.  Ditto for her siblings in their earliest years:”Picklewisp” (Tom); “Miss Swiss” (Joni), and their youngest sister “Miss Heather”.  These are the kinds of things you think of when you get older.

Bernard kids Dec. 1975

It has been quite a month; quite a year.  We all know that life is uncertain.  This year, like every year, a Christmas note comes about a friend who died.  You know you’ll get such notices.  You don’t know  who….

This year I single out Lauri, among many others, including my and Cathy’s children, for being there when the chips were down.  This diminishes no one else.  Lauri became the taxi when there was a need; she ministered to my spiritual welfare at a time when the spirits were down.

All I can say is “thank you”.

Especially, an additional thank you and gratitude to my wife, Cathy, who now has to “manage” this case at home (not always easy!)

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I gather that my heart procedure was more complex than predicted.  Predicting my small stroke was probably impossible – perhaps the probability was significant, but not the result, when it was found, after the surgery, that I could not properly stand on my left foot.  In the post-op fog, I remember that.  (The residual problem with the stroke appears to be minimal, and hopefully will become a memory, only.)

Today, Dec. 28, I’m running no foot races, but the walker I left the hospital with seems near unnecessary, though I’m pretty weak, physically.  Managing 16 stairs has proven to be no problem  Christmas-New Years week means physical and other therapy will not begin till Jan. 3.

I’m not one to be cooped up; an hour at a nearby coffee shop this morning was welcome.  We all have our habits.  Soon will be the first visit since the surgery to “my” Caribou Coffee, a near daily place to begin my day for the last 18 years.

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As I write, 24 days out, I’m at home and the post-op process continues and will continue for quite some time.  I have been deeply moved by all the assorted kinds of messages from friends – simple greetings, e-mail, etc.  Family has been central..  Yesterday grandson Bennie Menier, my Caring Bridge kin kid, was over along with his parents and grandparents – he had previously visited me at the hospital as well.  Grandson Spencer arrived at the door on Christmas Day in his Marine dress uniform, home on a leave I didn’t know about.  Everyone who reached out was so solicitous.  A list would be very long, very incomplete, since I would without doubt miss someone/something.

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Everyone, in whatever circle is part of my personal “infrastructure” – support system.  These are people who appear when chips are down, in mostly quiet ways.

I am not accustomed to feeling helpless; this has been a superb lesson in the goodness of humanity, generally, and doesn’t require physical evidence of any kind.  The word seems to get around.

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I want to add a word or two about Edina Southdale Hospital, Fairview Acute Rehab and the entire Fairview-University Hospital system of which I have been a patient since the early 1990s; and with which I have been personally acquainted since my first wife, Barbara, died at age 22 at University Hospital July 24, 1965, awaiting a kidney transplant.

Day after day, for 17 days, my life was in Fairview-U’s hands, at a time when I was completely out of control of almost anything.  The system continues to monitor and advise as recovery continues.

Other than driving past the hospital and the Rehab center on numerous occasions, I had rarely entered their doors for any reason, and had never experienced in person the wonderful people who all did their best to shepherd me through not always gentle waters.  We patients can be difficult customers and I am thankful for all of those within the system who assessed, advised, coordinated, mediated, as needed, and continue to follow up.  It is good to know that I and my family are not on my own.

The person I select to represent the hundreds of Fairview folks helping me survive the 17 days is the anonymous man, perhaps in his 50s, perhaps a volunteer, who delivered my meal to my room several times in Acute Rehab.  I don’t know his name, and we didn’t talk about weighty things, and our conversations were very short, but much appreciated.  Each time he showed up with the tray his presence was a bit of sunshine – a kind word or two, and off he went.

I could list many, many others who dealt with me during those 17 days in the hospital.

Systems as Fairview are collections of people, with the assortment of personalities, etc., which go with the word ‘humanity’.  Add to the mix the clientele which goes by the name “patient” (a most interesting word when I think about it, shortly after my experience of having been one…)  We patients are not there willingly, and are often frightened, and possibly not on our best behavior. But hospital workers of all ranks seem generally to do their best while we are in their care.  Thanks to every single one of them.

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Again, thank you to everyone, everywhere.

I would hope to personally acknowledge in some way, every one who has reached out.  I suspect this will be a near impossible task to do…so in lieu off a personal thank you, please accept my gratitude for your caring.

Happy New Year.

 

Heart. Gratitude.

Previous, on topic: “Aging Infrastructure”, here.  Summation post at this space on or about Dec. 28, 2018, “Infrastructure”.  

I write in person from my usual home office space in Woodbury.

Yesterday afternoon Cathy and my daughter Lauri brought me home from the Rehab hospital of the Fairview Hospital system. It was the 17th day after the open heart surgery on December 4.

There is time to go into the details, likely to be shared later at Caring Bridge.

My travel the last two weeks included a “small” stroke, which at minimum does seriously impede typing speed and accuracy with my left hand. It is a big change after over 60 years of typing, hopefully remediable in coming weeks and months.

Great friend Peg has set up a Caring Bridge site for me. It is greatly appreciated. I never in my life expected that I would join grandson Ben Menier at Caring Bridge My initial heart diagnosis came on the exact same day as Ben’s car accident: the afternoon of May 25, 2018. Here we are, Bennie and I, a couple of miles and 65 years apart, each of us re-learning aspects of life we had come to take for granted.

I keep thinking of a marvelous Ted Talk by filmmaker Louis Schwartzberg which I first shared at this space seven years ago. As Christmas approaches, however you and others observe the day/season of Christmas. I’d like to recommend this quietly and deeply inspiring reflection on grounding ourselves. You can access the 10-minute video here.

I am grateful, this day, the day which would be my Dad’s 111th birthday (he died Nov. 7, 1997).

There is so much to be thankful for; so many individuals and groups, especially the community of Fairview .

Have a great holiday and New Year, and great thanks to everyone, in diverse ways has conveyed best wishes.

 

An Ancestral Farm

Busch farm summer 1907. From right: Rosa and Lucina, Wilhelm, and Ferd Busch, Lena Berning and Frank Busch.  Wilhelm and Frank would be visiting from Hazel Green Township, Grant County, Wisconsin. Lena was likely living in LaMoure Co at the time, possibly at Edgeley.  Photo 11082-00425 ND Historical Society.

Busch farm Summer 1907 looking southwest from north end of Section 13. From left: Wilhelm, Ferd and Frank Busch.  At left, a half mile to the south, is the Busch farmstead, showing house and outbuildings.  Photo 11082-00427 ND Historical Society

This is a family page.  Pictured above would be my mother’s parents, her grandfather, and an aunt and uncle.  The pictures were taken in the summer of 1907 (see NOTE at end of this post).  Ferd and Rosa had been in LaMoure County ND, Henrietta Township, for two years, having moved west from Hazel Green Township, Grant Co, Wisconsin, near Dubuque IA.  They were the first of their two families, Busch and Berning to migrate from the home ground.  It had to be an adventurous time, in all the ways that word can be used.

Recently I sent around to family a number of files including historical information about the family.  They are presented here, for posterity, accessible as long as this blog has an existence.

The entire collection, including almost 1000 photographs, are in collection 11082 at the North Dakota Historical Society in Bismarck ND.

The summary history of the family (all multi-page pdf’s):

Family timeline, etc:Busch-Berning Family compiled Nov. 13, 2018

Impressions of the family on various topics:  Busch-Bern by DB001 and Busch-Bern (2) by DB002

Maps from Germany to North Dakota: Busch-Bern Maps by DB003

Busch photo index at ND Historical Society as of Nov. 2018: Busch photo NDHS Oct 7, 2018 Rev

POSTNOTE Dec. 2:  Found were some additional memories about the farm recorded by Vincent and Art Busch, Dick Bernard and Ron Pinkney in late 1999 early 2000.  (The second attachment is only a single page, completing Ron Pinkneys.) Busch Farm Memories001 and Busch Farm Memories (2)002  Memories as recorded by family were transcribed exactly as given.

The first pages of Busch Farm Memories are Vincents recollections of farming with horses.  Some years ago, Vince’s counsin, Melvin Berning, wrote a very interesting commentary on plowing with horses.  Here.

The Busch farm folks perhaps about 1912 outside the farm house. Note Grandpa Busch (center) holding  his fiddle – note his left hand.  Rosa is behind him.  Photo 11082-00052 ND Historical Society

With some of the Busch horses. Photo 11082-00135 of the ND Historical Society.  Among those pictured are Edithe, Florence, Vincent, Art and possibly Rosa, and maybe George.  Not dated, but dog Skippy points to later 1930s early 1940s.  Skippy liked to be in photographs!  Probably south end of the barn.

Vince and Edithe Busch Oct. 25, 2013.  Edithe was in the memory care unit at St. Rose Nursing Home, and Vincent would be taking a room in the same unit the following month.  They were down the hall from each other.

NOTE: The photos which lead this post were found at the Busch farm and quite likely were taken by a professional photographer.  Every picture has its own story.  These may have more than most, though unstated.

New residents in ND in early 1907 were Wilhelm’s daughter Christina, and Rosa’s brother August Berning who had married in Nov. 1906 and moved to Berlin in early 1907.  Sometime in 1907 they had a son, Irwin, who died at 6 months. No birth or death date is known.  By the time of the photo they were probably living less than a mile from Busch’s.  Irwin may have recently been born, possibly occasioning a visit by his grandfather Wilhelm to both rural families.

While North Dakota was in boom times in 1907, conditions were not the best.  In 1993, Anita Cranfield, Bernings 12th child, born 1925, recalled: “I believe Irene, Lillian and Cecilia [the 2nd, 3rd and 4th children] were actually born at the Busch farm in Wisconsin…I would guess that losing their first child Irwin made my parents very wary of having the children so far from doctors.  Turned out right because when Rose was born Dad delivered her and then the doctor got there.” (Pioneers p. 174, in the collection of ND Historical Society)

It is very unlikely that Grandma Busch came from Wisconsin on this trip.  Someone needed to be back at the farm; and she had her own health problems, possibly asthma, the same kind of ailment which ultimately caused her daughter, Christina, to die at 64 in 1950.

It is easy to romanticize the rural life of pioneers.  It could be and often was a very harsh and unforgiving life.  There are many stories.

Aging Infrastructure

Bernard family, at the then brand new freeway-side Buffalo, Jamestown ND, 1960. Richard (Dick) is not in this photo, at college down the road. Dad, Henry Bernard, probably took the photo.

Tuesday, Dec. 4, in the morning I have a date for an upgrade of my internal systems: replacement of aortic heart valve and, it was determined in a recent pre-op test, two sections of artery.  The hospital, Fairview Southdale, helpfully provides an overview of post-surgery life for me, for anyone interested.

Given a hoped for good outcome, you can ask me in awhile how it really was….  In the meantime, this is a time of reflection for me.  This is not a routine matter.  Of course, I have no idea about the outcome.  The season of Advent begins on Sunday, Dec. 2.  It is a good time to practice the skills of peace, justice and the broadest definition of neighborliness.

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Uncle Vincent had this same procedure a dozen years ago, and I was his driver and attendant at the time.  I know, now, how he experienced the preliminaries to open heart surgery, up close and personal.  He lived nine years afterwards, dying at 90.

He was 81 when he had the procedure.  I’m 78.

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For some reason I find myself thinking back to 1958 when I was 18 years old, heading off to college at Valley City ND.  That happened to be the very year when the first 12 mile section of ND Interstate 94 was basically complete between Jamestown and Valley City; part of the last 38 or so miles of my route from Sykeston.  I remember two things, vividly: 1) they said the road cost “a million dollars a mile”; and certain parts of that first dozen miles – namely the shoulders – had not yet been completed.  You needed to keep your eyes on the road.  But that first stretch was a very big deal, brand fresh and new.

1958 was 60 years ago, and virtually all of the interstate system is now 50 years or older, and showing its signs of age.  Every summer some new stretch is closed for a dozen or so miles to be redone.

I guess that is what facing me in this aging body.  I feel good – walk my two miles most every day, and more in between.  I will probably do so again today, depending on fresh snow, here.

The heart diagnosis came as a surprise.  Had there not been my annual physical back on May 25 – the same afternoon grandson Bennie and his Dad had their accident – I could have gone along unawares for some while yet, but inevitably there would have been a surprise.

So, off I go for repair.

Repairing the Infrastructure:

No one guarantees any certain outcome in a surgery.  Of  course, life offers no guarantees either.  Something can happen, any time, any where.  Any one of us can make a list – probably a long one – of the times something happened that could have ended our own life journey, but didn’t.

We’re fortunate to live in a time when much can be done, medically; I’m fortunate to have excellent support in all ways.

Anyone with an interest can google what is now my topic and come up with endless information.  On the spectrum, I gather I’m relatively low risk, which does not mean no risk.  I hope for good news long term.  We’ll see.

With extensive experience, the medical community has doubtless learned a great deal over time.  All patients are beneficiaries.

Still, my body, like anyone’s, feels the effect of age in differing ways.

On my life “menu”, apparently the heart was the weaker link.

It is my good fortune that there have been immense advances in successfully dealing with such ailments.  Of course, there are no guarantees.  They’ll do their best….

The Pace of Progress: 

Sunday afternoon I had an unusual opportunity to observe progress through an old movie: “Jurassic Park”.  Our 89 year old friend, Don, a Jurassic Park fan, and I, watched the movie with the full live Minnesota Orchestra playing the “soundtrack” in front of the screen.  It was a phenomenal afternoon.

On the way out I asked another attendee, “when was this film made?”  She said “1993”.  That’s 25 years ago.

Back then I saw the then-just released film at Mall of America, with a young guest from Germany, who I was taking to his host family.  I thought I was giving him a real treat.  He told me later the film was so frightening that he couldn’t watch it.

Looking at the same film 25 years later, I was most struck by how technology has changed since 1993.  DNA made an appearance in the film; a computer system supervised by a nerd was a near disaster, cloning.  There were many other “that was then, this is now” moments in this old sci-fi fantasy – a reminder about how far we’ve come; still a reminder that even the best has its downside.

Don noted the number of folks at Orchestra Hall whose iPhones were on before and during intermission inside the hall.  He’s never had a computer.  25 years ago, we’d not have seen such….

What will everything look like 25 years from now?  Even under the most optimistic scenario, I won’t be around 25 years from now.  Hopefully, progress will not go retro in the coming 25 years.  There is a danger that we could actually regress, in uncomfortable and perhaps even tragic ways.

Enough for now.

Back in 2006, I drove Uncle Vince and Aunt Edithe to Fargo as he took his trip into the unknown of open heart surgery.  We stayed overnight in the motel next door.  His brother, Art, and wife Dee, were there too.

He was to report for surgery very early the next morning.  I brought him to the hospital.

This was his first time for such a confrontation.  For 81 years he’d lived on the home farm in rural Berlin ND.  He knew the procedure had to be done, but he’d much rather have been back home.

I watched him walk, resolutely, in to the prep area; later the same day saw him right after surgery; sometime later ushered him into the rest of his long life back in LaMoure ND.

Next Tuesday I report, at 5 a.m., as Vincent did a dozen years ago.

He and his sister, Edithe, are on my mind as these days continue.  They made it to 90 and 93 respectively.

We’ll see.

Have a great December, Holiday season and New Year in 2019.

Thanks, Giving

November 25 is the 6-month anniversary of the automobile accident that led to a close brush with death for then-12 year old Bennie, and the ensuing months of care for him at Children’s and Gillette hospitals.

Nov. 11 we went over to see Bennie and family at home here in Woodbury.  He walked up the stairs, and down, unaided!  This first had occurred only recently.

I’ll let Caring Bridge take it from there, Mom Robin’s post, including video, went on-line this morning, Nov. 20, 2018.

There’s lots of road yet to travel for Ben and family, but what huge progress has been made.

Certainly, a time of Thanksgiving.

When the chips were down these last months, lots of circles went into action for Bennie and family.  This is what I am thankful for this year: not only for those circles, like Children’s and Gillettes, but every other individual and group that arrives unbidden on the scene when encouragement and help is needed.  “Families” like the Ronald McDonald House and its volunteer support come immediately to mind; CaringBridge, on, and on, and on, and on.  We are all vaguely aware of these angels of all sorts.  When the chips are down….

We are not alone, even when we think we are.

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Give yourself a treat sometime this week: free preview of the 60-minute version of the film The World Is My Country, access here.  Even those of you who have seen this film before, check this out.  This preview is of the shortened, one-hour version.  The film is about ready for full public release.  Yes, they’ll ask for a voluntary donation.  Contribute!

I went to “a place called home” concert on Sunday afternoon.  It was absolutely marvelous.  Here are a few pages of the program, beginning with the musical numbers, most of which can doubtless be accessed at YouTube: A Place Called Home001

Street Song MN (in blue) and Chorus Polaris (in black) Sun. Nov. 18, 2018 at Gethsemane Lutheran Church in Hopkins MN

After the performance, I wrote my cousin, Mary, one of Chorus Polaris, and Teri, Director of Street Song, that I had more than passing familiarity with personally getting too close to homeless myself.  The details are not relevant, though it goes back to well over 30 years ago when I was, paradoxically, on the corporate board of a major charity whose mission was and is to the homeless, among others.  During that time I heard a brief and very powerful talk by Mgsr Jerome Boxleitner, then head of Catholic Charities, on the topic here addressed.  His words speak powerfully.  You can read them here: Mgsr Boxleitner May 1982001.  I don’t take for granted the feelings of homeless people….

 

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Personally, sometime within the near future I’ll have a new experience: replacement of an aging aortic valve.  No date has been set, but probably within the month.  My life is normal: the usual two mile walk this morning, etc.  Thanks to the annual physicals I learned of this problem early – this is something I’d rather not be surprised by!

All best wishes to everyone.

 

Giving Thanks

This evening and tomorrow: Concert: A Place Called Home flyer v1

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Thursday we attended the Minnesota Orchestra, and on the program was a piece by Shostakovich, Concerto No. 2 for Cello and Orchestra, performed by the Orchestra’s Cello Principal, Anthony Ross.

Anthony and the Minnesota Orchestra exemplify “excellence”, and so it was Thursday.  He and colleague cellists offered an encore entitled “Song of the Birds“, memorably performed by Pablo CasalsHere is the piece performed by Casals himself years ago.

Tony dedicated the encore to refugees, and to social justice.  Simply, let the piece, and Pablo Casals, speak for themselves.  Thank you, Tony Ross.

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Life is full of surprises, if one is open to them.

Saturday evening we attended the annual dinner of the Islamic Resource Group in the Twin Cities.

Keynote speaker Todd Green of Luther College spoke on “Assuming the Best of Our Muslim Neighbors“.

Among his remarks he articulated three rules of engagement by theologian Krister Stendahl (more detail at end of this post):

  1.  When trying to understand another religion, you should ask the adherents of that religion and not its enemies;
  2. Don’t copare your best to their worst;
  3. Leave room for “holy envy”.

I was in that room Saturday night because of memorable hospitality by a Moslem family when I was in 8th grade, 65 years ago.  More here.

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Sunday, I was at the 100th anniversary commemoration of the end of WWI at the Landmark Center in St. Paul, sponsored by Veterans for Peace. The very fine gathering ended with the song made famous by John Denver: Last Night I Had The Strangest Dream.  People were invited to dance.  (if you click on the above link, it will redirect you to YouTube, and the song.)

Armistice Day, St. Paul MN, Nov. 11, 2018. Landmark Center.

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Then, Thursday came an e-mail from nephew Sean in Houston TX.   He’d been part of a “sleepout” for Covenant House.  $651,802 was contributed; Sean brought in $14,200 through his own efforts.  Included in his e-mail were these comments:

Starfish story: You may not make a difference to ALL – but you can make ALL the difference to one.

“I stayed up late because I wanted to see everyone sleeping out, I started to cry because you were all doing it for me” (Young woman at Covenant House)

“No one knows I am here, please no photos” (Young man going into the army from Covenant House)

“As I laid my sleeping bag on the ground I thought about bugs and rodents. I did not worry about being robbed or raped.” (Sleeper talking about the experience)

“50% or more say they have been “trafficked””. (Talking about those who come to Covenant House)

“They come from all over – we have even seen parents abandon their kids by dropping them on the corner and speeding away”

Thank you for helping me make a difference – most importantly to all those at Covenant House and whom they service – but also most profoundly in my awareness and appreciation and the push outside the comfort zone. There are great people out there – they just need us to see them as people – not homeless…This last thought struck true as I walked into a Starbucks, disheveled, sleeping bag, back pack, and to various stares and eyes as I went to use the bathroom – on my way back to my office…no one knew what we have all done last night – no one needs to know – except the woman who got the pair of socks – that was what mattered.”

(NOTE: earlier in Sean’s note: “1 woman whose face lit up and said “God bless you” for a pair of socks”.)

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Then came cousin Mary Kay’s notice about tonights concert (lead in this blog) which, I gather includes homeless persons as singers.  Quite certainly we’ll be there.

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The bad news?  Of course, it’s out there.

But let’s look at the positive for a few days, anyway.  Have a great weekend, week, and Thanksgiving.

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Krister Stendahl: Prof. Green’s remarks merited and received a well-deserved standing ovation from the audience in the filled ballroom at the hotel.  I had never heard of these rules, nor of Prof. Stendahl before Saturday.  Google his name; an excellent articulation of the rules is found here.  The rules are clear, brief and easy to understand.

Todd Green Nov. 10, 2018

Comment from Doreen, read in Mary McGlone’s column in the Nov. 18, 2018 National Catholic Reporter:

“In 1912, as political events were churning toward World War I, the French poet Charles Péguy wrote a book-length poem about God and hope, “The Portal of the Mystery of Hope.”

In part, it read:  The [virtue] I love best, says God, is hope. Faith doesn’t surprise me … [creation is so resplendent] … Charity … doesn’t surprise me … these poor creatures … unless they had a heart of stone, how could they not have love? … But hope, says God, that is something that surprises me….”

from Dick: This reminds me of a painting of a flag given to friends of Harold Stassen on his 90th birthday in 1997.  Stassen was one of the signers of the UN Charter in 1945.  The painting by Robert Mulder. loaned to me by a friend who had inherited it.

And in 1939, Christina Berning, a ND farm wife and relative I barely knew, sat down and wrote this poem (page 60 of “Pioneers”, a family history I put together in 2005.)  Christina died in 1950 RIP.

Hope

Strong winds are fiercely blowing / Winter days are cold and drear / Tis nice to sit by fireside glowing / And feel that spring soon will be here.

Cheer up, cheer up, my dear friend / And prepare ye for the spring / Winter so cold, soon will end / And the birds again will sweetly sing.

We will all hope and pray / for surely then we shall see / The dawning of a new day / and nineteen thirtynine’s prosperity

Then if we work, with might and main, / And carefully put our seed in / God will give us plenty of rain / To fill up our old grain bin.